Shame on me.
I seem to have discovered a place where intelligent, nerdy women my age hang out and flirt with guys like me. In fact, they seem to LIKE guys like me. Isn't THAT weird? There must be something wrong with these women if they like me . . . but, there are a few things wrong with me, so I guess we're even.
So, I apologize. Wholeheartedly. I've been neglecting my favorite diary readers AND my favorite diaries to read. Because I found a little cure for loneliness. It's not perfect (really, isn't flirting on the internet a little . . . impersonal?), but nothing in my life is perfect. I don't think anything in anyone's life is perfect. We just have to . . . find a way to be happy with the imperfections in our lives, or find new imperfections we can live with.
Anyway, I've been very self-centered. I've neglected true friends in order to flirt with women I hardly know. I'm going to try to rectify this situation, as . . . well, basically, I'm a good guy. At least, I try to be. My halo may be tarnished, and I may keep it in my back pocket, but it's really a halo.
Also, I also need to start spending time on my Plans. I'll give you all a hint: I'm going to start a website, and a blog, with a focus. I'll keep my diary, but I'll also make regular posts in order to deliver interesting and (maybe, vaguely) useful information to people. Until I work out a narrow focus that isn't the astoundingly complex one I started with, though, and until I can convince myself to research exactly what the psychiatrists are saying about me (oops! Spilled some of the beans!), I'm basically stuck.
So, of course, I am flirting with strangers online. Of course, I dare you to tell me it's not at least a LITTLE fun. ;)
Peace, voyeurs and voyeurettes. I'll try to drag myself from my flirting duties in order to post again, soon!