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I only mention this because my Godzilla obsession started with him, and it started some conversations when I mentioned it. Yes, I'm speaking of the Japanese movies, dubbed into English. There's 20+ of them, possibly more than thirty. The first was in 1954. The most recent I can find in the States was released in 2005, and the Internet Movie Database claims there's a possiblity of a 3D Godzilla movie to be released in 2009. I owned almost all of them from the first to the one released in 2000 (coincidentally, it was called "Godzilla: 2000" in the States). The collection was a hodge-podge of VHS and DVD formats, because I'd started the collection before DVD really existed. It's not really important. Just thought I'd clarify.
They're fun, though. Destruction on a grand scale, but with an interesting obsession with morality. Any nihilist with a nagging conscience would probably appreciate them.
Anyway . . .
I need to STOP. THINKING. Easier said than done, trust me. I have a constant monologue in my head, and it's rarely delivering good news. My anti-depressant of choice is called Cymbalta, and I cannot take a higher dosage legally. Still, I tend to be more depressed than not. It's still almost crushing, sometimes. Let some random shit go wrong, and I'll spiral down, down, down . . .
I feel abandoned, but I suspect I'm the one who has abandoned. Lost in thought . . . lost in time . . . Not. Here. Now.
I was a depressed little bastard as a child. Fortunately, I grew up into a much larger depressed bastard.
Everyone tells me, "It's all in your head." I bloody well know that. The PROBLEM is that the inside of my HEAD is the only reality I KNOW . . .
I'm quite incoherent. My apologies. I'll straighten my head out and maybe offer some sense.
Peace, you naughty peepers.