So it occurs to me that I didn't update this diary for a long time, and then I started in on it again, but I left out things that had happened in the meantime.

Like my step-father's girlfriend moved in with us. And my sister stopped coming by three nights a week.

Now, the step-father's girlfriend's kids are coming to spend the weekend. They're already in town, somewhere, riding around with my step-father. I sit at home dreading to meet them. Why should I dread to meet them? I don't know. My step-father's girlfriend is all right, I suppose, so her children will probably be all right, too. Still, it's an awkward situation, really. Here I am living with their mom because her boyfriend used to be married to my mom. It's enough to make me hide under a rock until the pain goes away.

I miss my sister. She got into a fight with my step-father (her father) and hasn't been by to visit since then. This was about a month or two ago. I need to come up with an excuse to see her, is what I need to do. But what do I say? "Hey, just 'cause you're mad at your father doesn't mean you can't spend time with your older brother" doesn't really have the ring I want it to. "It's a lonlier house without you in it" is a little too sappy. *sigh* fuck it. I'm just gonna have to call her up sometime soon and say what I say.

I'm off to buy cigarettes. More later, as there is much I want to get off my chest today.